Between Black and White

Every bloody single time I remember you, I wanted to rip out my heart and scream.
Of all the people, why it had to be you?
I hate this feeling.

I hate your ways.
You made plans then change it on the last minute.
You made things easy.
You are a friend to almost everybody. But,despite all that people in your life, you made me feel needed--important.
Why it had to be that way?



I hate your eyes.
I was lost in them that night when you look at me.
Almost nothing need to be said because of your eyes.
I felt helpless. Ironically, I felt warm and fuzzy. Why I had to feel that way?

I hate your no-teeth-smile.
I stop breathing when you smile--but then I know that I'm loved. That is the time I have no worries. Why I had to feel that way?

I hate you more than this feeling.
Of all the people, you're the least I have expected. You caught me off guard.
I don't like the way you eat.
I don't like where you eat.
I don't want to listen to your stories.
I don't want to share things with you.
I don't want to put my arms over your shoulders.
I don't want to stretch your eyes.
I don't want to scratch your belly.
I don't want to hug you.
I don't want you in my life.

"Ikaw yun taong mahal ko na 'di pwedeng mahalin"
Why it had to be you?